&Some desire is necessary to keep life in motion

Fri, 02 May 2008 13:08:35 GMT

Moved,
nvr coming back.

&Love hurts the most

Thu, 01 May 2008 12:32:24 GMT

Dinner was fantastic:D
Saw Huang yizhen and her junior. heh.

&Too much food

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 11:35:25 GMT

Mcgriddles today wtih jieying and wy dd;
i was the earliest, even though i got stuck in the lift!
Mcgriddles' really good. All of you should try.

Csm was hahaha walking time for me!
Well done 311, sarahlee.
2nd for 4x100m and sarahlee's individual?
Did i mention nanyang owned the teachers' race again?
Without ms yeo and mr shyam, we still have Mr Tang!
AND AND, some teachers totally caught us by surprise! Their speed was incredible!
Ohoh, there's an interesting conversation i had that i wanna share
_____: Eh, running for any events?
Me: Hahha, i cant run fast!
_____: Then never throw anything?
Me: Missed heats for matches
____: i see.
so cute lah, i mean somebody actually expected me to run/throw.

Lunched at pizza hut with team2008.
i think i finished 1/5 of the cheese bottle lah!
Bowling at RTC! fun fun!
Cheryn totally owned parapara!
Enjoyable day!
Thanks wongs!

Heh, i have not decided a choice for june!
Should i call and check with the i/c?
who wanna help me!

&Time to make a choice

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:14:12 GMT

ROAR.
WHY CANT LIFE BE OPTIONLESS.
now i'm stuck between 2 choices.

&Redbull gives you wings

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 12:53:42 GMT

Hello world!
I'm feeling very accomplised because
1) Our chem car travelled damm far
2) I went to get my hair thinned
3) Family went to get groceries i.e FOOD
4)Dinner was great
5)AMES is down to 1
6)Boughts sweets for math study
7)Somehow persuaded mommy to send tomorrow
8)Revived my friendster!
9)Got my ass here to post

See, i did quite a few things.
Enough to get me happy!

ANYWAY, i'm gonna wait and see this particular blog!
If the blog owner remembers to post that particular corny statement.
<3

&Worn out

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 11:10:18 GMT

Thank god it's friday,
i've never been this tired before.
i guess this pain has taken it's toll on me.

Today has been rather demoralising after pccg
when L said about 14 girls would retain by the looks of our blocktests.
It's only april.
Ohwells, that's life eh?
Did i mention somebody got me really pissed?
As i've said, you want smaller classes to focus,
get into g.e.p lah.

I want to have a math tys!
who wanna donate to me or sth!
roar,
math is a killer.

Study study,
since my june will be busy.

&我不想忘记你

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 12:05:45 GMT

Hey my dearest sec4s,
So the season has ended for all of us,
But please remember, that's not the end of your Nanyang Basketball journey.
Once a team, always a team.
You all promised to come back, so honour that promise alright?

2007-2008 has been hectic for all of us,
and i'm really proud of you guys,
for holding on, for fighting hard,
for all your achievements today.

Throughout the process,
It's both emotionally and physically tiring,
I'm glad that all of you stood by each other.

Thankyou for being such great leaders,
and being part of our lives.

<3

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

{/edit}
Huang Yizhen wants me to post about her, but i dontknow what.
Anyway she lives in the same neighbourhood as me, and on the 19th floor.

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 11:44:51 GMT

我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛

&Disappointments time and again

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 10:55:13 GMT

All that i am asking is just a little more care, concern and support.
Is that too much to ask for?
School isn't very fun nor loving.
Rather, it's very stressful.
How many a times do i have to suppress my tears and emotions when i'm home?
Just because all of you don't give a damm about it.
Fine, be that way.
One day you dont see me at home till wee hours, it's not my fault.

&Feel of being loved

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 13:29:42 GMT

That's the end,
Seasons 2008 ended.
Nanyang came in second.
I would like to thank the teachers, supporters, juniors and parents.
Most importantly, coach.

Having mixed feelings now.
Should i be proud of our fighting spirit, disappointed with our performance, sad that it's our last game?

Ohoh, dd told uswhat the lady said to her.
I think every single one of us in the team should be very proud.
Our efforts are recognised.
Well done girls(:

擦干眼泪说声再见，都是成长的代价。

BDIV2008,
all that i want to say is,
thank you for all that memories we have together.
I will always love and miss every single one of you.
<3

&want and dontwant

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:44:32 GMT

how long have i not posted?
heh.
tomorrow's the day.
go team, ily.

AND MY VERY SPECIAL YOU.
Concentration and shine/burn bright:D
I've faith in you, there's nothing more to lose.
whatever that is gonna happen after that, is not within our control.
but for now, lets make miracles!

&<3

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 11:59:11 GMT

I'm really happy today.
Fine, i dont look like i'm happy. But i'm happy.
Bdiv08 ran 2.4km together in the morning! (wy dd came late though heh,)
I ran like 12.01!!! IF ONLY I CAN SPRINT A LIL FASTER.
maybe my timing would be under 12 already.
But i'm happy with it:D
Dd's mad, she ran 10.55! proudproud worhxz.

Pfft. everything's piling up.
i know i should stop asking for extensions. But i really can't finish.
I've tried. really.
and i really can't cope with math.

There's so much to do,
geog essay, ih essay, math ames, math ws.
and the ironing of uniform.

SPA(s) next week. tell me how to survive.

{/edit}
UNITY!
Play hard tomorrow, you know what you guys want.
All the way:D

&Last one

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 10:36:34 GMT

Won Unity by 7,
i hope goodfriend and lover are doing alright.
Will msg them later.

"Thinking wastes brain juices, Stop thinking."
If only it was that easy.
Sometimes i get so irritated by myself,
yet i continue with it.
How many times have i said it sucks.
Countless.

Not satisfying at all.
not a single bit.
Though the anger was controlled,
but it just wasn't good enough.
I want to give you a great end,
not just like that.

Come on, wake up sharlene.
you have no more time.

&

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 10:27:19 GMT

没有勇气把心里的感受说出来，
真希望你能和我分享这一切。
一个人实在难过。

&Tough times

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 11:51:12 GMT

Just watched a movie on Hallmark Chn.
Titled "Gracie's choice"
Really good show, made me so touched and sad.

Guess what, the weekend's almost over.
and i've not done much work. goddammit.
and i still have snapshotland to do.

Have been thinking hard lately,
and i dont think it's working.
When seasons end, more thinking will come.
and that's not a very good news.

Did i mention that the thought of cutting came to my mind?
I have absolutely no idea how did that came about, but it just did.
Dont worry, obviously i didn't.
I know what's right and wrong.
Life is so tough, with or without reasons.

I need someone to talk to, but dont ask me who.
Cause i dont know either.
hahaha sounds so pathetic.
Maybe! teddy makes a good choice.

Okay, who wants to send me songs.

&Dependency ratio

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 14:35:35 GMT

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I've told many, not to be over dependant on one individual,
but here i am, doing it myself.
I know it's wrong, but i just cant pull myself out.

The challenges ahead seem strange and tough,
Not anything that i wanna ever go near.
I know i've no choice.

I just want to runaway, youknow?

&5,3 or 1 finger(s)

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 11:11:16 GMT

well, had u16 trng today.
Played darwin u14 team, nth proud abt the game since of the mismatch.
oh i had stupid moves today,
and coach spotted them, sad.
shall work hard and soar for myself, for superwoman, for jie, for team, for ls((:

Finally gotten our gears!!
But sadly, i have like #7 for jersey.
The whole world wants it, but sorry cant exchange cos the sizes are wrong!
Eeni had this really nice pair of shoes, but nvm, we'll wait for the next pair.

Lunched with adora,eeni,yeenei,yuling and olivia.
heh i swear the cchm ones are super mean! hahah!
then train down yewtee with olivia,
and the back home.
i'm super nice today.

i shall change my url! heh.

&Blessing in disguise

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 11:41:30 GMT

Well, i guess today isn't my day?
Too much anger, too much attention for the surroundings.
I promised ls to try,
and i really will, wanna end season properly.
MrO's nicer than what i imagined,
i will take it the positive way((:

Stayed to watch AH vs AI, RGS vs USS.
Rgs and Uss made in top4.
Though i feel rather sad for AH, since their team's really strong.

hey you,
i'm not sure if you will read this, but!
i just wanna say i'm glad we're on talking terms,
and i guess an improving relationship.
Sorry for being so mean before,
i couldnt accept the departure.
As i've said, we are also "we".
So, what's ours will be yours too.
Takecare and work for your next goal!
<3

heh.
i still have not told my mom i failed math. rawr

Heyy,
thanks for the msg,
i really appreciated it.
i hope to give you a happy end((:
mark my words!

&our achievements

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 10:55:24 GMT

Hello everybody!
Dont you all just miss me so much considering the fact that i've not updated my lj for so long!

hoh,
so the week went by average, i guess?
monday was good, probably old news already.
yes, nanyang's top four already.
i guess it's a kind of recognition of the team's effort?
ily, team'08!
tuesday,wednesday was alright.
HAH, video analysis on wednesday,
it's so funny to see yourself playing haha.

RIGHT, before i forget.
went to the polyclinic for OBS health check today.
i'm super irritated by the service there.
1) There were no signs that you've to inform the registration counter abt the treatment you're seeking
2)The Doctor did not mention anything about visiting the nurses first
3)AND THEY COULDNT FIND MY FILE AND =MY FAULT?
Apparently i didnt know i had to go to the nurses for height/weight,
so i just went to the doctor.
And the nurses only found out during payment and they kicked a big fuss outta it.
AND there was this nurse who went,
"this girl bypassed us, so terrible."
hello excuse me, you had no signs to tell your patients what to do.
dammm.

MINHUI!
sarah and i are usually veh spot on,
SO(:

It's always easier to say than do,
you do know what's good.
I really hope you will try to forget,
at least for the day.
It's tough to battle matters of the heart,
but please dont let this stop you from getting far.

&pfft

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 08:53:24 GMT

有位子坐时，你不要坐。
没有位子时，你却要坐。
Isn't life an irony?

And so we're playing chungcheng on monday.
It's at 430pm, SO
maybe more people can come and watch us.
I would appreciate it.
I think i've repeated this fact over and over again.

U16 today,
we got our shoes):
Not excited at all cause the shoes are the ones we saw the U18 guys wearing.
The appearance of the shoe is not very appealing so, you get the point.
Other that the overrated shoes,
trng was fun!
spent an hour plus on foot drills,
really fun,
i was the first to passed for jump+crossover!
hahaha and ms tan called me dancer- -''
OLIVIA LEE,(though i'm not sure if you'll see this)
you better not forget how to do the jump+crossover okay.
Deanna and i took time to teach you hahaha:D
Talking abt deanna,
she's really lame because she thinks 2 ppl going out=romantic.
Trained downtown with her, she's quite funny!

It's not that i wanna be irritated and stubborn and mean,
but i just dontwant to help them.
it's very hard because of the treatment.
i cant just forget everything i was told and be all nice and goody.
it's really hard.

&further than this

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 11:44:43 GMT

Hey,
i know you're irritated, frustrated and disappointed,
But remember what you told me before,
We have to trust her judgement though it's hard to accept it sometimes.
I know the feeling sucks but then not everyone knows how exactly we feel.
Ponder over it for awhile and move on alright?
We've a common goal to achieve,
and the last thing is,
i really do appreciate you.

Won yuying by 9 today,
wasnt a very good game.
go team, we'll create more miracles.

&rainy days

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 11:26:44 GMT

Havent been posting for quite sometime,
rather tired lately,
dont even have energy to reply msgs at times,
so dont be surprise if i dont reply you.

Well i guess most likely everyone already know the groupings?
Nanyang
Yuying
Scgs
Chungcheng(main)
Yuying tmr at 3.15, supporters?
Go team nanyang:D

HOH,
ms van dijk said she think i passed IH,
i hope it's true, i dontwant false hopes!
roar, i want ms van dijk as tcher in-charge!
oh nanyang, please fufil my wish.

RAH I'M ATTEMPTING TO SLEEP BY 9!
WHICH IS HIGHLY LIKELY BECAUSE I'VE FINISHED MY CHEM WORK,
NOT MATH THOUGH):
thankfully there's no math tmr.

rahhhhh,
i wanna talk to somebodyyyyyyyy/

&难道勤奋就真的弥补不了不存在的天分？

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 11:39:06 GMT

You know, i really tried.
Drained and worned out, but i'm still trying.
As much as i want to give up, i know i can't.
But the pain is overwhelming me.

I didn't really quite expect that,
considering the amount of effort i really put in.
I wanted it so badly, and it had to turn out like this.
It sucks a lot, well because i worked really hard.

And that fact that you had to emphasize,
Didn't quite make my day any better.
I know i'm a burden, but i'm trying to make up for it.
Did it occur to you that you've hurt me?

Working hard and having potential are two different things,
Is there really no way to make up for either one?
I'm giving my all for it,
And i dont expect wonderful results,
Just a little something would do.
Tell me, can't things be changed?

On a lighter note, somebody asked me this yesterday.
Imagine you're in a box.
An enclosed box, with no windows, doors or anything connected to outside of the box.
So tell me, how do you get out.

I got the answer right the first time,
TO STOP IMAGINING.

If only life could be that simple.

&旧爱还是最美

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 11:21:39 GMT

Basically,
those who turned up for u16 trng today,
were really excited cos we thought we're gonna get our stuff.
But who knows how disappointed we were when the clock struck 1pm.
Quote ms tan, " Dont ask me, i dont work for converse!"

Found out nanyang trng was cancelled,
so had lunch and watched the kembangan vs u18.
Conversion took place within 50mins, really fast eh.
Have been wondering if i should have told her all that,
but i guess, it was only right to let her know the truth?
Besides, the truth ~~always~~ hurts.

Took a bus with many people,
there were my idols too,
well i guess sometimes people dont turn out how they look,
so we cant be too judgemental.

And the truth is,
i get jealous so easily.
Was observing how they interact with each other,
and i suddenly realised,
there's no one similar around me.

It sucks so much because,
humans can never handle their problems alone.

Quote, "i need a new one."
and i guess after we get hurt,
we want painkillers to stop the pain.
But is it what we are looking for?

i guess, the tangible stuff, can never be taken seriously.

&chocolate sundae

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:43:00 GMT

Just got home from dinner with team.
Had a game with dunman sec.
Won, but it was rather disappointing i guess?
you: i'm sorry that i even talked back, jiayou, i still need you

Hey youuuuu,
Dont be too upset, as i've said,
Learn from mistakes and improve!
Nobody is infalliable!
Humans all learn and grow, sweetie.
Calm down and start again!
<3